an unsent email to a (non)stalker)

Id confess if I dint think it would hurt you, (or thought it would help) Id ask what do you teach? you seam to be a sunday school teacher, you know I used to be one too, or an assistant and when I asked to teach the other teacher didn't think that I was sincere, and then the self proclaimed director came and told me that I cant have my autistic student try the other class, even though he was to be alone in mine. And then at the other church I asked a wonderful teacher, who said that I ought to ask the other teacher, who told me theres no room for me even in vbs, which I found out was asking teenagers w/o experience to volunteer.

now I'm recovering thinking that I cant handle another fall. but trying to try, learning to generalize private things